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Anxiety Will Always Be With Me No Matter What
It’s not going anywhere
Recently, I have had a few episodes of anxiety again.
I hadn’t experienced one for a while, so it was a shock when I found myself panicking whilst I was walking to the supermarket the other day.
I have no idea what brought it on. Maybe I felt a twinge in my chest and my mind went into overdrive about what it could be, I’m not sure.
All I know is that I felt anxious in a way I hadn’t felt in a while.
At first, I was disheartened that my anxiety had flared up again. I had had it under control for well over six months. It was a far cry from the summer of 2017 when I was a complete mess.
However, I was able to get the episode under control quickly. I realised as I was walking to a supermarket, if anything happened I would be in a place full of people.
Unlike previous times where the episode would carry on for a good 30 minutes, this one lasted less than 5 minutes and I was able to compose myself quickly.
When I realised this, my initial disappointment at the issue flaring up again subsided. I had made progress compared to where I was before.
That is something to be proud of.
